I tried to exercise these few days but then again, its a failure. I feel so lethargic and tired all the time. I'm dying. Talking about death, I lost 2 of my favorite people in my life recently. But I know they're in a better place.
I need to do something productive with my life, I need to be more motivated to do things. I need to be like who I used to be. I need to be healthy again. Its been long since I last felt good about myself. All I do now is eat and drink and sleep. Even pigs exercise (some of them). I need a different lifestyle. I need to be able to do things like running and tanning alone. I don't need to depend on someone to do it with me. I have to change. I need to change. I miss the old me.
Helloooooo! My new skin is so RAINBOW though the advertisement is so annoying and i can't seem to get rid of it. But anywaysssssss, I shall try and blog often. This space needs more attention. Meeting my bitches later (; can't wait!
Definitely one of the rare days where I actually can't fall asleep. So many things on my mind. I'm turning 22 in like 3 weeks and my life is still pretty much messed up. Nothing seems to go right, why? Or is it just me? I believe I've changed in so many ways but why isn't things picking up like it should? I should work harder and strive for the better. I'm done feeling like shit.
I've finally signed my end of probation form. Have been waiting for this day for the longest time. If its 3 months ago, I would have left MCYS screaming 'TIME TO PARTYYYY BITCHES!' but then on Tuesday as I walked out of that gate, the only thing on my mind is 'I'm not going to do anything stupid to come back here again'. I dont want to disappoint anyone any more. Things are going to change and it will change.